Tenderwild

I love my favorite running playlist. It’s exactly a satisfying 1 hour and 30 minutes long. It feels like every song evokes an emotion, a memory, a core issue I am struggling with, a relationship that I am deep in thought about, my own mental health, builds my confidence, etc. I find that the steady, bilateral movement of my legs and arms, and my breathing from running to be neurobiological beneficial in itself, and this music really flows well for regulating my nervous system and gearing me up for the day. I honestly think the whole experience of reflecting, running and listening to a powerful soundtrack helps psychologically process stuff. So when I feel the need to reflect, I find this really helpful. Sometimes, I take a completely different approach to running. I try to be present and notice as much with my senses as possible. I try to look around and adjust my gaze and perspective. I like to learn about the local nature in my community. I know quite a few of the trees, f...

 I am curious if anyone has traced the origins of their polyamorous roots?  I think there is immense value in just embracing what is intuitively right when it comes loving for each individual...and also I find value in understanding my roots and how they shape me, wound me, fortify, so I can grow as best I can.  Recently I had this musing. I was raised by a village.  Weekends at my great grandparents, my mom's best friend had a huge impact on my life, because she reflected creativity, fantasy, and mythology to me.  She sparked my imagination, and our whimsy brains worked in similar ways.  My mom has a different energy....I know that sounds hippy and vague, but it's how comfy I feel describing it.  I received a lot of mentoring from my mom's friends, because my mom didn't match my energy.  I also felt nurtured by my Great Grandpa and my Grandma.  These figures weren't perfect by any means, but the way they loved me was good enough for me....